life before, During and without Logan 

Stephanie| 28| annoying girlfriend| husky obsessed| bereaved mum

It has been 8 months since Logan. I felt it was time to provide myself with somewhere to focus on that

a place where I do not have to pretend, or hide my feelings.

A safe place.

I am not doing this for sympathy, or the poor me outlook. Far from it. I am doing it for me. For Logan.

I hope to reach other parents who understand what losing a baby feels like. to reach loved ones who would like an insight, Or anyone who wonders about this way of parenting. Because that is what this is. This is the type of parent I am. I am a parent whose baby isn't here. 

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I still hold my son, Just in my heart instead of my arms

I still read to him, I just do not get to hear his giggle as i make funny voices. 

I still sing to him and talk to him, I just cant hear the coo;'s and gurgles back, or see him pulling faces at me while he wonders who is strangling a cat. 

I still love my son, 

I may not be able to see him grow up, But he gets to watch me grow as a person. 

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I hope you find comfort from my blog, I hope I manage to make you smile at times, either from silly little things, or from you realising you relate. 

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I am sorry to find you here. If you ever need to reach out to someone, Please do. 

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Lots of love, 

Steph and her little star.